The Cure for the Common Zone-Out, a Sentinel / Guide
collaboration by Glacis. Rated NC17.
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He was starting to feel like a ping pong ball. Between tagging along with
Jim half the night, covering his classes, grading papers, counseling students
and working on his own research, Blair was beginning to believe that he'd never
sleep again, and that his whole life was happening between his ears. The rest
of his body was feeling abused, under-used and neglected. He hadn't gotten laid
in weeks and he was getting twitchy.
It didn't help that the recurring star in the wet dreams he had when he
did manage to snatch a few hours sleep was his straight-as-a-poker partner. His nonverbal partner who communicated mainly by touch. Touching him.
Straight. Poker.
Hard. Stiff. Long. He didn't realize he had moaned out
loud until Jim's voice broke through his distraction.
"Chief? You
okay?"
"Oh, yeah, man." It came out much huskier than he expected.
Damn. He forced himself to sit upright, concentrating on the rain-slicked
streets passing outside the truck window. Clearing his throat, intensely aware
of the inquisitive sky blue eyes that kept sending concerned glances his way,
he clamped down on his wayward libido and chirped brightly, "Just fine,
big guy. So, where to next?"
Jim shot him another measuring glance. Sandburg had been even spacier than usual lately, and it was starting to worry
him. The kid was stretched pretty thinly, and the strain was starting to tell on
him. Deciding to keep his own counsel, and hopeful that Sandburg would open up
to him when he felt up to it, he tilted his head in the direction of the radio
and took a quick left at the intersection. "Down to the docks, warehouse
at the corner of Fifth and Whitten," he relayed, answering the verbal
question and ignoring, for now, the unasked questions. "Been
some suspicious activity down in that area."
"Isn't there always?" The dry question surprised him, a little.
The cynic was not a role too often assumed by the perpetually perky
anthropology student. Before he could repeat his earlier question, Blair gave a
little growl and wiggled in his seat, pulling at the seatbelt as if the
restraint was irritating him. "Sorry, man, came out all wrong on that one.
Just been a long day, you know? Ignore me."
Not in this lifetime, Jim thought, biting back a smile. "Whatever you say, Chief."
There was a flurry of activity on the radio as they neared the site, and
Jim's eyes focused intently as they pulled up to a crime in progress. He could
hear Sandburg's elevated heart rate and almost taste the sharp tang of
adrenaline-inspired sweat, and he identified and cut them away along with all
the other extraneous information his senses were feeding him. Time to concentrate on the job.
For a split second he realized with crystal clarity that somehow, along
the line, the job had transmuted from 'protect the public' to 'protect the
Guide, THEN protect the public', but he didn't dwell
on it. It wasn't something to think about, it just was, like the sky was blue
and the rain was wet and Simon smelled of cigars. With instinctive ease he
forged in front of his smaller friend, then crouched
down beside his Captain, reaching for his gun with his right hand, scanning the
scene intently, reaching to place Sandburg behind him with his left hand,
listening for any clue to give the pinned police an advantage.
Sporadic gunfire came from the gaping shadowed doorway of a rundown
warehouse, and police cars were ranged in a scattered semi-circle in the muddy
gravel lot, penning in the drug runners. Unfortunately, the lack of cover also
made the police officers prime targets. There would be quiet for a short while,
then a volley of shots would rip across the cars,
causing the officers to duck and cover, pop up to fire in the general direction
of the criminals and pop back under cover again. It was a nerve-wracking
situation, and from the look on Simon Banks' face it had been going on for much
too long.
"Jim," he nodded curtly, eyes skipping over his star detective
and his unusual sidekick. "Blair. Keep your head down," he ordered,
then briefed Ellison on the situation. "At least four gunmen were sighted,
possibly more inside. We can't get a fix on them. Units are along the sides and
two are along the back, but unless they have a boat they can levitate outta there, they won't be going that way. No pier and it backs straight onto the Sound. So they have to come out one
of the two side exits on the west side, or out the front, and I don't think
they're that suicidal -- or stupid."
"Could get desperate, sir," Ellison noted grimly. "And
that could quickly lead to 'stupid'".
"Yeah," Simon agreed, "it could. We need to know what
we're dealing with, but I can't get anyone close enough to find out. You think
you could do something, Jim?" He looked at Ellison a bit like a child
looked at a magician, not quite believing there was actual magic there but
hoping against hope that there might be.
The detective looked over his shoulder at Sandburg. The kid was staring
at the darkened entrance, eyes narrowed, chewing at his lip. "Chief?"
"Can you see anything in there, Jim?" he responded, straining
to see something other than inky darkness himself, knowing that his friend's
Sentinel vision could cut through it easily. Jim turned back to the warehouse,
concentrating on the far corners of the building.
"Not very well," he finally growled, feeling frustrated by his
failure. A warm hand patted him gently on the shoulder, then
lingered there, rubbing small circles over his bunched muscles. The warmth
radiated out from that spot all along his neck and spine, and the tension
immediately began to ease.
"Try what worked before, Jim, with the other warehouse, the other
drug runners." Jim thought back to another case, and a group of crooked
cops who nearly ended his life in an insane helicopter chase. His Guide's voice
brought him back from the memory. "Piggyback your hearing onto your sight.
They're making noise in there, they're breathing, they're shuffling around,
moving their guns -- focus in on those sounds and allow your sight to follow
along the same path."
He slipped into concentrated focus, trusting Sandburg to keep him from
going too far. Identifying, sorting and discarding, he filtered out the
distractions of the policemen around him, keeping only the warmth of his
Guide's hand on his shoulder and the gentle timbre of his voice as anchors.
Slipping deeper into his task, he damped down the rest of his senses and
allowed himself to hear and see only the prey he was searching out. Gradually,
he heard it. The rustle of clothing, the varied, panicked beating of several
hearts, softly muttered curses in Japanese and English, the slide of sweating
fingers on slippery gun stocks. Barely aware of his actions, he answered the
soft questions Sandburg asked, what he heard, what he saw ... shadows. Four ... no, five of them. Three to the front, one to the
back, scrabbling for a way out, one to the side, slipping through the side door
to SHITTHATHURT!!
The gunshots took all three of them by surprise, but they stunned and
deafened the Sentinel, who curled in on himself and dropped like a rock to land
in a small fetal ball in the gravel at Blair's feet. Before either he or Simon
could react the three criminals near the entrance got delusions of themselves
as Butch Cassidy and the Sundance Kid (plus a player to be named later) and
made the incredibly stupid mistake of trying to rush nearly a dozen armed,
stressed, wet and pissed off Cascade police. Sandburg instinctively dropped
over Jim, wrapping himself as far around the larger man as he was physically
able, trying to shield him from the ensuing gun battle. Simon screamed orders
for more men to cover the side, to capture the one escaping gunman. He threw
Blair a concerned glance, which the younger man waved away, signaling that he
would take care of Ellison. The captain nodded, then
swung around the side of the car to lead several officers into the warehouse in
cautious pursuit of the remaining gunman.
Jim was shaking his head, eyes clamped shut, small, stifled whimpers
escaping lips compressed so tightly that there was a thin white line all the
way around them. Muscles danced along his clenched jaw, the only movement in
his pale face. Blair pulled his Sentinel into a full-body hug, trying to send
him as much physical comfort as he could to blunt the pain. He mentally
castigated himself for his stupidity -- they'd been shooting sporadically since
the damned stand-off started, why on Earth hadn't he realized that opening
Jim's hearing up would also open him up to sensory overload if more shooting
started? Not taking time for the full self-reaming, he concentrated on Jim,
speaking softly to him, reassuring him, comforting him. Trying
to bring him back.
"Can you hear me, big guy? I know, probably a stupid question, but
then that's not surprising considering the stupid suggestions I've been coming
up with lately. Blame it on the hormones. I'm almost glad you can't hear me.
But maybe the babbling will help. Jim? I'm right here, man. Come on, now, tune
it down, shake it off, you can do it, man. I am SO sorry, Jim, that was, like,
the TOTAL opposite of what I'd've hoped for, nothing
like relying on your Guide to blast your eardrums out of your head. SO sorry,
man. Tune down the hearing, okay? Just reach in there and turn it down,
concentrate on my voice, just hear my voice. Bring your other senses up, can you do that for me, big guy? Can you bring up your
sight? Do that for me, Jim. Open your eyes, just a bit, yeah, that's it, that's
great, Jim, you're doing great."
Watery, glazed crystal blue eyes stared up at him, pupils contracted to a
pinpoint still, in reaction to the shots. Sandburg kept up a running commentary
while he thought about it. Made sense, really. Jim had
piggybacked his sight with his hearing, so when his ears blew it must have
affected his sight. One part of his brain went into scientist-mode, immediately
trying to determine a way to overload one sense in a piggybacked pair under
safe laboratory conditions, to help Ellison control a situation like this in
the future. The other ninety-eight percent of his brain was caught up in
savoring the vision wrapped up in his arms.
Jim's head rested trustingly against his abdomen, gazing up into his
face, arms clutching weakly at Blair's own arms, which were wrapped completely
around the bigger man's shoulders. The warm weight of his head and back pressed
against his thighs were a turn-on in and of themselves, but when he took into
account the sharp angle of Jim's cheekbone pressed into his crotch, and the
sculpted mouth not four inches from a suddenly very-interested cock, it was
really too distracting. Realizing that his libido was getting way out of
control and Jim was still very nearly zoned out, he
shook his head and stamped firmly on his arousal. Or tried to
ignore it, at least.
"Okay. Okay, so sight won't work right now, and hearing is pretty
numb ... Smell. That's it, Jim, okay, you can do this. Focus on your sense of
smell. Try to pull back from your hearing and your sight, they're pretty well
hammered. Smell the water, the gunpowder, the smoke from Simon's cigar. Follow
your sense of smell back from the pain, big guy. And, here," he reached
down with one hand and allowed himself the luxury of a slight caress, running
the pad of his index finger gently down the angles of Jim's face, running it
from temple over cheekbone, skirting the temptation of that mouth to trace
along his chin, then return. "Feel that, Jim. Feel my touch. Combine the
scents you can smell and the feeling of my hand on your face and pull yourself
out of it, Jim."
Somewhere, lost in a dusky haze shot through with flashes of pure red
pain, the Sentinel could barely make out his Guide's words. He knew they were
important, knew he had to listen. Wanted, badly, to listen, but he was afraid
if he came out of the darkness then it would happen again, that explosion of
sound that had blinded him. He was vaguely aware that he was getting his senses
mixed up, that they had gotten too completely entwined and had knocked him out,
but he wasn't quite sure what to do about it. But Blair would know. Blair would
help him. Shivering in the darkness, his Guide's voice was a warm thread that
beckoned to him, reassured him, called to him. Swallowing his fear and trusting
his Guide, he concentrated fiercely, and some of the words made it through.
Smell, try to smell. He could do that. And touch, there was a touch, it went with that warmth, along his face, easing the
pain in his head. So he could smell, and he could touch, and maybe eventually
it wouldn't hurt so damned bad to see, or hear. He took a deep breath, all of
his being divided between the little brand of fire trailing along the side of
his face, and the scents surrounding him.
Spices. And ... flowers?
No, lighter, more delicate than that. There was something in the background : cordite, and damp leaves, mud and something
coppery. Blood. Bound up as he was
in his Guide's voice, his mind shied away from the connotations of his Guide
and spilled blood. He focused in on the lighter scents, and isolated the
one that had been teasing him. Herbs. And ... something salty. Sweat? Sweet
mixture, sweat and herbs and spices and ... something unidentifiable.
Blair. Unconsciously turning toward the source of the delightful scent, he
burrowed his face into the nearest warm flesh and inhaled deeply. God, he
smelled good.
Dimly he was aware that the litany of words had fractured, and that the
warmth of the thread of his Guide's voice was now pulsing steadily with something
more. He could taste something on his lips. Something ...
salty. Wasn't sweat. It was familiar, but alien
at the same time. Opening his mouth, instinctively trying to back up his smell
with his sense of taste, he nibbled gently on the ridge of flesh under his
teeth. Through the porous cotton denim he tasted ... sweat, fear and adrenaline
lending it a sharp edge, and something different, coming through more strongly
as the material became soaked from his saliva. Thin fluid,
watery, somewhat viscous. Delicious, actually.
Memory worked at the problem of identification as his skin registered a
number of changes in his Guide, each one drawing him further toward reality and
out of his zone-out. Flush heated the soft skin, the fine hair drew up as the
skin tightened, the well-known heart beat increased, moisture
beaded the skin. He realized that his hand was under Blair's shirt and he was
caressing the younger man's chest at exactly the same time that he realized
that he could hear again, his vision was clear, the unidentifiable scent was
musk, the scent of arousal, he was chewing on Blair's erection, and his memory
supplied the mystery of the salty taste. Pre-ejaculate. Hell of a way to wake
up.
Sandburg couldn't have made a coherent sentence at that point if his life
had depended on it. One minute he'd been talking his partner through a
zone-out, trying very hard not to think about how much he wanted to strip them
both bare naked and mate like minks, and the next
minute his partner is doing his best to chew his cock off through his pants.
And he was STILL zoning out. God, if that was the way he reacted unconsciously
then if he ever got him in bed when he was in full possession of all his
faculties neither one of them might survive the trip. On the
other hand, what a hell of a way to die.
The sound of gravel kicking up on the other side of the car coincided
with Banks' well-known bark to jolt Blair out of his reverie. Prying Jim off of
himself reluctantly but firmly, he bundled his partner up against his front in
an attempt to hide his aching erection. Simon already thought he was a flake
and an adrenaline junkie. All it would take is seeing a boner this size after
nearly losing Jim to a zone-out in the middle of a firefight and Simon'd revoke his advisor status so fast he'd get rope
burn from getting his badge yanked off his neck. He smiled weakly at his
partner's boss, who stared suspiciously at him before bending a concerned look
at the groggy detective cradled in his arms.
"How is he? He doesn't look very good," Banks decided
critically. He shot a glance at the student. "Neither do you."
"He's gonna be
okay, Simon," Blair reassured him. "It was a pretty severe zone-out,
but I think I know what we need to do to control it. It's going to take some
work, but at least we know there's a possible drawback to using his senses this
way. Now that we know it we can isolate the problem and make sure he has a
coping mechanism to ensure that it doesn't incapacitate him in a situation like
this again." The captain was staring at him. Hey, it was the best he could
come up with. It wasn't easy to think when the majority of the blood had
drained from his brain to his cock, and Jim leaning up against him sure as hell
wasn't making it any easier to concentrate. To his vast relief, Simon simply
shook his head as if to clear it, then pointed at
Jim's truck.
"Take him home, Sandburg. I'll see you both tomorrow. You look like
you need a break."
Blair nodded vigorously. Yup, a break would be a good idea. A break that included getting Jim safely home and tucked in bed so
he could climb in the shower and jerk off a minimum of four times just to get
himself drained enough so that Wee Willy didn't jump to attention every time
Jim took a breath. Not that Willy was really all that Wee, but still ...
he realized that Simon was starting to glare at him, and hurriedly led Jim away
to the truck. Better get out while the getting was good.
Bundling his silently acquiescent partner into the passenger seat, he
took a deep breath and concentrated on getting them home in one piece through
the rain slick streets. He glanced over several times, happy to see that Jim
was looking gradually more alert as the minutes passed. By the time they
arrived at the loft, he seemed fully aware. They negotiated the stairs in
silence, Jim preceding Blair into the loft and heading straight for the sofa.
He settled himself against the cushions and looked up at the younger man, eyes
calm, face completely composed. Giving nothing away.
"How you doin',
man?" Blair asked cautiously, unsure how much Jim
remembered from his zone-out. "Feeling more with the program, here?"
Jim smiled. For an instant, Blair was startled. There was something
predatory in the smile. Then it disappeared, and the usual gentle presence that
was his friend reasserted itself.
"Okay, Chief."
Blair waited a bit, then came forward slowly and perched on the arm of
the sofa. Jim's mouth curled in a typical irritated grimace at the casual
disregard for his furniture, and Blair brightened. This was more like it. Back to something approaching normal. He slid off the arm
into the corner, snagging a throw pillow to discretely cover the still-damp
patch at his crotch where his partner had been nibbling on him. The memory of
that unexpected nuzzle started his heart in a trip hammer rhythm again, and he
fought to control it. It was too important, right now, to find out exactly what
had happened to Jim at the scene of the shooting. Only by understanding could
there be control and only through control would Jim be able to operate
effectively without risking his life on the job. And that was what he was here
for, after all. To Guide his Sentinel. Not get hot and
horny over him. He sighed and got down to business.
It was a frustrating hour on both ends of the couch. Sandburg tried every
way he could think of to try to get Jim to explain what had happened during the
zone-out. He patiently explained why it was so important to note if there were
any differences and find ways to combat the debilitating effects of what was,
in essence, a double-zone-out. Jim agreed, monosyllabically, and nodded
cheerful agreement to everything Blair said. Then he sat and stared at his
Guide. Happily. Cheerfully. Utterly unhelpfully.
It was making Blair nuts.
At first, he was patient. Then he got mad. At Jim's evident puzzlement,
he tried a different technique, taking deep, centering breaths and pausing to
study Jim after each question. Then he realized that Ellison really was trying
to help, but every time he tried to recall exactly what had happened that
afternoon he went into a mini-zone out. The combination of discovering two
vastly different variations of zone-outs in one afternoon was too much for the
grad student. Deciding to cut them both some slack, he gave up for the evening
and grumped out to the kitchen to make supper.
It was pretty normal after that. If he could consider
sitting staring blankly at his laptop while Jim apparently enjoyed a baseball
game on the tube normal. And if the visions that kept playing across his
rapidly glazing eyes were one endless series of erotic pictures of he and Jim
exploring every permutation of sexual expression he'd ever heard of (and a few
he made up on the spot), well, that was rapidly becoming normal too. Eventually
he couldn't fake it any longer. Besides, if he stayed two feet away from the
man any longer, his hard-on was going to make it impossible to walk. Better to
get out while he could still move.
"Hey, Jim," he offered tentatively, trying to keep the 'please
throw me over the back of the couch and fuck me senseless' plea out of his
voice. "Getting late." The game was long
over, and some cheesy movie with Stallone was screaming out of the TV. He
shuddered. "And it's been a long day. Think I'm gonna
turn in."
His partner stared at him for a moment, then
smiled slightly. "Yeah. Think I will too. I'm
bushed."
"No wonder, man," Blair sympathized, edging off the couch
toward his room. "Been one of those nightmare kinda days, WAY too much information overload for one
afternoon. Sleep well." He ducked into the small room and closed
the door softly, leaning against it and closing his eyes with relief. That had
been close. He knew that Jim must have noticed his heart rate and his sweat, could probably smell the pure desire running off him
in waves, and thanked whatever Deities were watching over wayward Guides that
his particular Sentinel was a great respecter of privacy.
Leaning his head against the door, he heard the quiet rustle as Jim left
the sofa, clicked off the TV, and stepped lightly up the stairs. Nearly holding
his breath, trying to stay quiet himself, he slid his tee-shirt and sweater
off, then shimmied out of his jeans and shorts, kicking off his socks as he
wandered toward the bed. He couldn't be bothered to find his normal boxers to
sleep in -- the way he felt right now, they'd just get in the way. Both hands
were at his crotch before he even got as far as the bed, and he simply fell
sideways when he felt the side of the mattress at his knee.
Arching into his hands, he worked quickly, in no mood to wait after being
in a state of advanced arousal all bloody day. His left hand worked his balls
from side to side, sliding them in the soft sac,
separating them and slamming them gently back together. He licked his right
palm and fisted his cock, pulling the shaft, rubbing his thumb firmly across
the head and pumping back down again. It wasn't long before he could feel the
tide of orgasm start at his toes, working its way up his legs to center in his
pelvis, tightening his buttocks and arching his back. His left hand wrapped
around his shirt, now, pressing firmly, while his right milked the head in
short sharp bursts of movement, until he froze. His mouth opened, but his
scream was silent, some last vestige of discretion stopping him from freaking
his roommate out with his usual noisy reaction to climax.
Every muscle in his body melted after he came, and he lazily ran his
fingertips through the creamy liquid splattered across his belly. Resolutely
ignoring the fact that the face he had seen behind his closed eyelids had been
Ellison's, and just as fiercely ignoring the fantasy that the hands had
belonged to his partner as well, he snagged a discarded shirt from the untidy
heap by his bed and swabbed himself relatively clean. It would have to do for
now. He slid into sleep, images playing through his imagination, beyond his
ability to control.
Upstairs, Jim's nose twitched.
There was that smell again. It traveled a direct path from his face to
his groin.
Blair was down there. And he was alone, doing things that he should have
company for. His company. After all, he was the
Sentinel, and that was his Guide. His buddy. His blue-eyes. His. All his. As it should be.
None of these thoughts actually made it to his conscious mind. He had
slipped back into the strange mini-zone he'd been in and out of since that
afternoon. Only this time he was separated from his anchor, and he didn't
approve of that one bit. Unaware of his actions, knowing only that there was
too much space between him and that wonderful smell,
he rolled off the bed and followed it.
The darkness in the small room was no match for his enhanced sight.
Automatically noting, disapproving and then forgetting the mess, he zeroed in
on the sprawled tangle of limbs and torso and hair that was his Guide. Sandburg
was wrapped halfway around a pillow, face buried in the soft cotton, the top
sheet flipped almost completely off the bed, leaving the long expanse of his
back, flanks and legs bare to the interested gaze eagerly eating him up.
Shoulders were broader than one might expect, smooth
silky balls of muscle that begged his hands to cup them and a little bump of
collarbone that asked to be nipped. His arms were long, and well-formed,
muscular in a different way than his own, ending in long-fingered, broad hands.
Hands that had led him back from the darkness many times in the three short
years they'd been together.
Jim found himself kneeling beside the bed, all of his senses focused
completely on his Guide. He didn't recognize what was happening, but he knew he
liked it, and it felt right, somehow. His eyes traveled down the curve of
Blair's ribs to the indentation at his waist, then swept the length of his
legs, splayed across the mattress in relaxed sleep. He found himself caught up
in the play of light and shadow in the hollow behind Blair's knee, and the line
of his ankle. Lifting his eyes, he stared at the soft mounds of his ass, the
shadowed cleft leading to two small dimples at the small of his back. His
tongue flicked out and wet lips gone dry. Silently reaching, he trailed one
finger delicately up the line of Blair's spine, feeling each individual
vertebra from his coccyx to the nape of his neck, burrowing under warm curls to
trace a lazy circle at the base of his skull.
Sandburg stirred under the deft touch, but didn't QUITE awaken. Jim took
advantage of the change in position to brush the loose locks of hair away from
Blair's face, eyes memorizing features already subconsciously burned into his
brain. Long, dark lashes swept over his cheeks, darkened with beard stubble.
Curve of his nose, cute little pug although he wouldn't dare tell him so when
he was awake. Full lips, slightly reddened and with indentations along the
bottom, as if he had bitten it earlier, slightly open, allowing a glimpse of
warm darkness inside. He wanted to dive into that mouth. He wanted to cup that
round chin in his hand and tilt that sweet face up and devour that mouth.
So he did.
Strong hands came up to wrap around his shoulders, pushing back in
half-awake panicked reaction. The furry chest beneath his own heaved up as
Blair tried, unsuccessfully, to gasp for a breath and buck off the unexpected
intruder shoving a tongue down his throat. Ellison ignored it all. In fact, he
didn't even notice. Every atom of his being was concentrating on his tongue.
He'd never known that you could taste a scent. Gradually, he became aware that
his Guide was making distressed little whimpering noises, and dimly he
remembered that he also had to breathe once in awhile or risk passing out. And
if he passed out he wouldn't be able to taste Blair anymore. That threat was
enough to get him to raise his head a fraction.
Nose to nose with his extremely startled partner, he stared into sapphire
eyes and tried to stop his senses from skittering all over the map. It was as
if he was in some sort of fugue state, jumping from one focus to another,
reality shifting with each instance a sense was triggered. He shook his head,
attempting to clear it. This was too important -- he had to concentrate.
Switching to touch, damping down smell and taste for the moment, he slowly
rubbed his chest and legs against every inch of Blair's skin that he could
reach. Since he was several inches taller and quite a bit broader than the younger
man, this effectively allowed him to blanket Blair's whole body. He balanced
himself on his knees and shins, and used his skin as one huge touchpad. He
could make out muscles moving under satin skin, the silky roughness of hair on
Blair's legs, the wiry nest of curls at his crotch. and
the denser, softer fur covering his chest. There was an alien, hard, cooler
texture at one side of his chest ... ah, his nipple ring. He shifted slightly
and rubbed very lightly against it, barely tugging at it with his chest.
He could see the results of his body massage in his Guide's eyes. His
pupils were gradually dilating until they nearly eclipsed the sparkling blue,
and the rim of iris that remained had darkened to navy. Jim felt himself
slipping away again, zoning out on the fine grained texture of skin over firm
muscle that was tingling against the full length of his body, and he
automatically eased his focus from touch to sight, pulling away from the depths
of those incredible eyes to rove along the rest of his Guide. He was mesmerized
for a moment by the contrast between his own strong, pale fingers and the warm
sable hue of the curls winding around them. When had he woven his fingers
through Blair's hair? It didn't matter. They belonged there. They'd been aching
to do that for months, he just hadn't known it.
His gaze trailed along the tangled curls to the slightly darker, finer
hair covering his chest. Through the fur he could make out cinnamon colored
nipples, already peaked, begging for attention. A delicate gold ring threaded
through the left one, standing out slightly from the erection of the tiny nub.
The glint pulled him in, deeper, deeper, and he gasped and covered it with his
mouth, unwilling to allow his sight to take over the experience. It was delicious,
the tang of salt from the sweat glistening on Blair's skin, the cool metallic
taste of the gold, and he realized that he could twine taste, touch and sight
together.
More of the distressed little whimpers cut through his distraction, and
he came back to the present to feel Sandburg's hands, pulling him closer, this
time. His Guide was panting, harsh breaths cut through with incoherent pleas,
interspersed with his own name, keening "Jim! Jim!" like one of his mantras, over and over. The helpless cries
slipped in and out of his consciousness, warming him as Sandburg's voice always
did. With less effort, now, he wove the strand of hearing into the rope that
was binding him to his Guide.
As they twined into place, he became aware of the sweet, spicy musk that
had drawn him here to begin with. It was radiating off Blair in waves, now, and
it made his head swim. He added it to his anchor rope, now complete, binding
him, freeing him, completing them both. Reaching to catch both strong wrists in
one of his hands, and holding them at Blair's waist, he lowered his face to the
strongest source of the musk. Inhaling deeply, he closed his eyes, the image of
the damp, swollen cock flickering in the darkness behind his lids. Bending
forward, he lapped at the straining flesh, and reveled in the lush moan that
echoed from the head of the bed. As he took more and more in, the moan mutated
into a wail, until it was a single unbroken undulation of sound. When he had
completely engulfed Blair's cock, he swallowed.
The cry broke.
Blair Sandburg was convinced he was hallucinating. And he hadn't touched
anything even mildly hallucinogenic since he'd started living with a cop who
could smell it five miles away. But it couldn't be Jim, here, in his bed,
rubbing every part of him, carding his fingers through his hair, playing with
his nipple ring, sucking his ... oh, sweet Erotes ...
he came so hard he very nearly passed out.
When the funky reddish haze finally cleared from his vision, and he was
almost able to breathe normally again, he took stock of his surroundings. Yup. Still in bed ... only felt like he'd gone surfing on
the astral plane. And, yeah, that was Jim, all right, whom he was lying over,
draped across him like some sort of plush teddy bear with all the stuffing loved
out of him. Jim, running his fingers through Blair's hair,
humming softly to himself. Humming? Jim?
Okay, so if he, Blair, wasn't tripping, what the HELL was Jim on?
"You," came the contented rumble from
underneath him.
"Hmmm?" He hadn't realized he could actually form words already, much less that
he'd said the last bit aloud.
"You're incredible."
Great Gods and little fishes, it sounded like the man was purring! "Uhm, Jim ... are you ..."
Stoned? Temporarily insane? Possessed? "okay?"
"Incredible, Chief."
Oh, man. He WAS purring. A shudder worked all the way through Blair,
starting at his scalp where the long fingers were kneading away and running
clear down to the soles of his feet. Definitely some kind of
possession. His panicked thoughts immediately began listing all of the
arcane and esoteric rituals he had ever heard of to get rid of unwanted demons.
Not that this particular manifestation was exactly unfriendly -- quite the
opposite, he had never been so satiated in his life -- but when the Real Jim
broke through and got his body back he was gonna be
WAAAAAY pissed. Better to cast it out, much as he hated to do it, than risk
both of them getting killed when Jim snapped out of it.
"Uhm, we need to talk, big guy." The
hand in his hair stilled, then pressed his head
against a warm, solid chest.
"'Bout what, Chief?" Was there the slightest touch of apprehension in that contented voice?
"You just sucked me dry, Ellison." Well. He supposed that could
have been stated a little more delicately. He closed his eyes and unconsciously
held his breath, waiting for the explosion. There was a rolling rumble under
his head, and the chest he was resting on shook slightly. He stiffened, then realized that his previously perfectly straight partner
who was currently exhibiting the signs of a split personality at the least and
demonic possession at the worst, was laughing his ass off.
"Oh, god oh god oh god." This was not good. "This is NOT good, man." This was scary, in
fact. "You're scaring me, man!"
The laughter ceased immediately, and the arm around his ribs tightened to
the point of discomfort. "I'm sorry, Chief,"
Jim apologized softly. "I never want to scare you. That's not what a
Blessed Protector does, right?" This last comment was accompanied by a
wide grin.
"A Blessed Protector doesn't usually climb into bed with a sleeping
Blessed Protectee and blow him 'til he passes out,
either!" Blair practically shrieked. It had been a long, tough, and damned
confusing day. And now Ellison was TEASING him? No way.
"You did nearly pass out, didn't you?" Interest warred with
some concern in the query. Blair would have started tearing out his hair at
this point, except that, with Jim's hands carded all the way through it, there
was no room for his own. He settled for a heartfelt sigh.
"What. Are. You. Doing.?" He could hear the thin thread of incipient
hysteria in his own voice. Jim responded to it by hugging him closer and making
comforting circles with his fingertips along Blair's scalp. Almost against his
will, he found himself relaxing. He was a sucker for a scalp massage,
especially when it was coming from a guy he (admittedly privately) adored.
"I'm making love to you."
Calm, cool, collected, like it was the most logical
thing in the world for SuperCop Ellison to be 'making
love' to his partner. Who just happened to be a guy. Blair fought down the giggle that was trying to force
its way out of his throat. He was more than half afraid if it got out it
wouldn't be alone, and then he WOULD be in hysterics.
"Okay. You're -- we're making love." Treat it like an
experiment, Sandburg, he admonished himself. Maybe, eventually, this'll make
some sense. "And, tell me, why is this?"
"Why's what?" He sounded distracted. Oh, no, not another
zone-out.
"You're not zoning out on me, here, are you, Jim?" It was a
full-throated Guide-roar, genetically designed to kick recalcitrant Sentinels
back to full attention. As usual, it worked ... mostly.
"No, Chief, not really. Just ... you smell ..."
"...what?" Blair teetered between anger and that stupid attack
of the giggles. So, now he stank on top of it all?
"Edible." It was more growl than word.
He swallowed against the bulk of his heart, that
had suddenly ended up lodged in his throat. "Never knew you were that much
of a carnivore, Jim," he joked weakly. "Always seemed to like the
pasta-"
Before he could finish the sentence, a long, mobile mouth attached itself
to his, and a prehensile tongue grabbed his and stilled it. As his mind tried
feverishly to figure out how Jim had DONE that, fingers dragged his head to a
better angle, and he found his mouth thoroughly and utterly tongue-fucked. He
had never come from a kiss before, but the way this one was heading, it looked
like there could always be a first time. Just at the point when he was
convinced that his brain was going to explode, along with every other
fluid-bearing part of his body, Ellison broke the kiss.
"You talk too much, Sandburg." Convinced that he had his
Guide's rapt and undivided attention, the Sentinel continued serenely.
"Don't know how it happened, but it happened today. Realized
I love you." The expressive face between his palms was one large
question mark at this statement. He dropped a hard, quick kiss on the parted
lips and continued. "We can talk about it later, in the lab, but I figured
out a way to control all of my senses at once." The full lips parted
again, and he swiftly kissed Blair senseless to delay any questions. Satisfied
with the dazed blue eyes sparkling up at him, he finished his 'explanation' --
what there was of it. "New way to recover from a
zone-out, Chief. Bury myself in you."
A strong thrust of his hips left Blair in no doubt whatsoever about his
meaning. Jim saw the realization dawn in his partner's eyes that, yes, the younger
man had enjoyed the climax of his life and no, Jim hadn't, and yes, Jim wanted
inside, but was silently asking permission, and yes, by giving him this
permission he was tacitly accepting the change in their relationship,
explanations to follow, and oh by the way, the love part went both ways, but
there would be plenty of time to work that out later, and right now he had this
mondo torpedo digging into his belly, and YES,
please, go right ahead, be my guest and fuck me silly. What came out was a
soft, "Please."
Jim did.
It wasn't until several long minutes later, after Jim and Blair had very
thoroughly tasted and petted and rubbed and bitten and licked nearly every
available part of one another's bodies, that he hit a snag. Lying side by side,
one of his hands again securely braided into Blair's hair, the other
rhythmically squeezing a muscular buttock, both of Blair's hands busily
plucking at his nipples, Jim realized that they spirit -- and the applicable
portions of the anatomy -- were more than willing, but the practical knowledge
was nil. He'd never made love to a man and other than the deep throating that had come naturally to him,
he wasn't sure what to do next. Well, he KNEW, he just wasn't quite up on the
mechanics of the act. Pure frustration pulled a low growl out of him.
Maybe it was the new level of intimacy, or maybe Sandburg was just a hell
of a lot more experienced than his deceptively innocent face would lead one to
expect, but the Guide took over and led him through once again. Blair rolled
them both over, so that Jim was on his back and Blair was straddling his hips.
Leaning forward, he stretched until he could kiss Jim deeply. It was incredible
-- he nearly zoned on the taste again.
Before he could lose it completely, Blair broke the contact and slid down
his legs, curling over and brushing the ends of his curls over the aching
erection lifting from the thick thatch of brown hair at Jim's groin. The
sensation nearly sent him out of his skin. He could feel every individual hair,
a silken whip of fire, hundreds of tiny needles of pleasure jolting him nearly
to orgasm right there. He yelped, and his body jerked as if electrical current
was running through him.
"Tune it down, baby," came Blair's
soft voice, deliberately using the Guide command tone. "Feel it, but
control it. You will not come now. Not until I tell you that you can." He
forced his eyes open and met the cerulean flame of his lover's glare. "You
come when I say so. Yes?" It wasn't a question. He nodded agreement
anyway.
Satisfied with his capitulation, Blair returned to his task. The wet,
rough rasp of his tongue along Jim's cock nearly killed him, but he reined it
in, determined, for some reason he didn't think about too closely, to follow
his Guide's command. He was rewarded by a delicate, thorough tongue bath that
left him dripping and close to bursting. He was near the end of his control,
hanging on to sanity with his fingertips, ripping the sheets beneath his
writhing body. Blair, having prepared him to his satisfaction, reached behind
himself, twisting slightly. Jim couldn't see what he was doing, but he could
see the results. His partner's erection, which had faded slightly, jerked in
response to whatever Blair was doing behind his back.
A flush began at mid-chest and spread rapidly, rushing along his throat
and over his jawline, turning his cheeks even darker
red than they had been. Blair's tongue swept along his top
lip. wetting it, leaving a glistening trail of
moisture in its wake. As his pulse thrummed faster and he jerked slightly,
rhythmically, Jim realized just what Blair was doing back there. The thought of
his Guide, stretching himself, using Jim's own pre-ejaculate to lubricate his
opening, ripped a groan of pure need out of the Sentinel.
"Please, Chief, please, let me..." His voice trailed off, and
he stared helplessly up at his partner.
Blair bit his lower lip, and took a deep breath. "Steady,
babe." One firm hand swept up Jim's sternum, calming him. Then he reached
behind his hips and grasped Jim firmly. The feeling of the strong fingers
curled around his near-bursting cock just about finished him. As if he
recognized how close Jim was to losing it, Blair slid his hand quickly to the
root of Jim's cock and pressed the balls firmly. Before the bigger man could
buck in protest, he guided the tip of the cock to his anus and, forcing the
deep breath out, sank onto Jim's erection at the same rate he exhaled.
The Sentinel screamed.
It was unlike anything he had ever felt. Tight, and hot, yeah, he'd half
expected that, but the muscle at the entrance was like a moving cock-ring, pure
slick tension at the base of his cock, rippling muscles milking the length.
He'd died, nobody'd told him, and he'd ended up in
heaven after all. Heaven was Blair Sandburg in heat.
Then his Guide moved.
He had no breath left to scream. The best he could do was moan. So he
did. With every breath he could drag in, he moaned one word. Over
and over and over.
"Blair."
His lover shifted, leaned forward, stretched for a single, biting,
thrusting kiss. Then Blair shifted back, leaning at a particular angle, and
gave an involuntary yelp of pleasure. Jim tuned into his cock, not a difficult
task since, at the moment, it was the center of his universe. He could feel a
little protrusion, and if he gave a small, targeted thrust, he could rub
against it with the edge of his glans with each
stroke.
Good move. Must have found the hot spot. The
response was immediate. Blair's fingers clenched on Jim's quads, his head fell
back, his mouth fell open. A few carefully aimed
thrusts and the young man came, hard, without even touching his
own cock. A hoarse wail, vaguely recognizable as "Jim!" tore
from Blair's throat. The sensation was exquisite, and ripped the remaining shreds
of Jim's control from him. A continuous shudder of muscles along the tight
passage combined with the spasming of Blair's sphincter pulled the orgasm from
him, milking him dry, pulling out heart and mind and soul and spilling them
deep in his love's body. It was the most intense sensory overload he had ever
experienced.
He didn't realize he'd blacked out until he came to again. Blair was
sprawled bonelessly across his chest, hair spread
across his face, catching in his mouth. His cock had softened and slipped out
of his partner, and he could feel the soft warmth of Blair's genitals nestled
in the curve of his abdomen. He was wet and sticky from mid-chest to mid-thigh,
and if they slept like that they were gonna be glued
together. For some reason, the thought didn't bother him in the least. With the
last of his energy, he hooked two fingers around the edge of the sheet and drew
it over them, careful not to dislodge his sleeping Guide. There would be plenty
of time to talk in the morning. And knowing Sandburg, they'd talk this through
or die in the attempt.
He wouldn't have it any other way.
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